AM I AN ADDICT?
Only you can answer this
question.
We
found that we all answered different numbers of these questions
"Yes." The actual number of "Yes" responses
wasn't as important as how we felt inside and how addiction
had effected our lives.
Some of these questions don't
even mention drugs. This is because addiction is an insidious
disease that affects all areas of our lives - even those
areas which seem at first to have little to do with drugs.
The different drugs we used were not as important as why
we used them and what they did to us.
When we first read these questions,
it was frightening for us to think we might be addicts.
Some of us tried to dismiss these thoughts by saying:
"Oh, those questions don't
make sense;"
Or,
"I'm different. I know
I take drugs, but I'm not an addict. I have real emotional/family/job
problems;"
Or,
"I'm just having a tough
time getting it together right now;"
Or,
"I'll be able to stop when
I find the right person/get the right job, etc."
If
you are an addict, you must first admit that you have a
problem with drugs before any progress can be made toward
recovery. These questions, when honestly approached, may
help to show you how using drugs has made your life unmanageable.
Addiction is a disease which, without recovery, ends in
jail, institutions, and death. Many of us came to Narcotics
Anonymous because drugs had stopped doing what we needed
them to do. Addiction takes our pride, self-esteem, family,
loved ones, and even our desire to live. If you have not
reached this point in your addiction, you don't have to.
We have found that our own private hell was within us. If
you want to help, you can find it in the Fellowship of Narcotics
Anonymous.
"We were searching for
an answer when we reached out and found Narcotics Anonymous.
We came to our first NA meeting in defeat and didn't know
what to expect. After sitting in a meeting, or several meetings,
we began to feel that people cared and were willing to help.
Although our minds told us we would never make it, the people
in the fellowship gave us hope by insisting that we could
recover. Surrounded by fellow addicts, we realized that
we were not alone anymore. Recovery is what happens in our
meetings. Our lives are at stake. We found that by putting
recovery first, the program works. We faced three disturbing
realizations:
1.
We are powerless over addiction and our lives are unmanageable;
2.
Although we are not responsible for our disease, we are
responsible for our recovery;
3.
We can no longer blame people, places, and things for our
addiction.
We
must face our problems and our feelings.
The
ultimate weapon for recovery is the recovering addict.